A complete misery of a mood overtook my mind as I walked around Chester looking for a spot. Four other buskers occupied the prime spots of Chester, three of which were vocalists singing to backing tracks, but with a phone or tablet on a stand for lyrics – I’ve never understood this, kind of seems more like street-karaoke rather than busking, I understand it when vocalists perform from memory and you can feel/see their passion for singing. More of a passion than a quick grab for cash which is what I feel when I see street-karaoke, but if it works for them and makes them/the street happy, then awesome, go do that! It can sometimes be dis-heartening, but I suppose the general public enjoy singing and hearing songs they know – that’s the X-Factor culture influence kicking in. But generally as humans we don’t like things that are different, it’s uncomfortable and uncomfortable means unsafe in our natural instinctual way of being.
But anyway, I compromised and found a quieter spot to play, but I just sat there with this misery consuming me, making me angry – I rarely get angry. My mind shouting all sorts of questions and feelings I haven’t felt in some time; what’s the point? no-one wants to listen, I’m just in the way, not doing anything of value, I should be out doing something more and giving more to the world, you’re just playing the same stuff and no-one wants to hear it, whats the actual point of it all? you suck!
And then I said, ‘SHUT UP!’, the weird angry thoughts soon stopped, interrupting with ‘but this…and this..and….’ – ‘NO!’. I set up as quick as I could and started playing.
The truth is no-one cares, and you can see that in two ways;
‘No-one cares, whats the point?!’
‘Wait… no-one cares? Then I can just be me and do what I feels is of value!’
No-one wants to hear you complain, complaining sucks. I hear people complain all the time about tiny little things, I always wonder why their mind is consumed by it, I mean I understand it to a certain degree because of having moments like it, but I realise how unproductive and negative it is on the mind.
We are so small in this world we have,
Why would you worry about little things,
Just take all and enjoy it now,
We have this one life
I have to learn where that misery grew and control it better next time. But playing music sure helped, busking definitely helped. So to answer that mindsets question – ‘Whats the point?’ – the point is, it helps me stay happy and keeps my mind in a good place, which in turn helps me lead a happier more productive life – that is the point!
Find what makes you happy and use it as medicine when you feel not so good inside.
Live stream from a portion of the set;
Over breakfast this morning I wrote in detail, this whole idea that busking helps you deal with rejection (I’ll keep adding before posting). With this constant stream of people walking past, some really don’t care, some look down on you, some throw insults at you, some pull their children away from you as they run in excitement towards the music “Ahhh, stay away, don’t catch the music big!“. I used to get upset by it, but now I’ve learnt to accept that not everyone is interested in everything. We’re all different and we all enjoy our own things, if we took notice of absolutely everything and enjoyed everything then we’d probably go crazy! No ones obliged to pay attention to you.
But busking is great in the sense that it pulls those out of the crowd that do really enjoy your music and that do find value in what you are doing. Which I feel applies to anything that you start doing, if you start doing something and exposing it to the world, documenting it online or just telling people everywhere, then you’ll soon pull out those from the crowd that really align with what you are doing. Opportunities that match your needs will come to you, when you just be you and do what you want to do.
So just be you and do what you want to do!
In the sense of it making you and others happy and bringing value to the world. Not in the sense of doing whatever you want and forgetting about the consequences that hurt others.
Selfie in a Starbucks, back on Route to Snowdonia! Hiking and Exploring 🙂
An elderly couple walking the high-street, intertwined hands, a smile so sweet to each other it melts your face off – clearly their love for one another has been infinite and so true. I imagine their life to be somewhat simple, sweet and beautiful. Maybe they found love at a park bench, an accidental touch of hands as one sits down, a smile opening the heart to a whole new world, a voice tickling the ears in a soothing, addictive manner, all dancing and swirling into a story of magic and love.
Their attention from each others eyes, drew to the sound of a busker, turning and freezing still, totally absorbed and intrigued, they both felt something good. Their smiles rising simultaneously as though they were one. Walking over in unison, “We’ve never seen anything like this before! How fantastic!”, throwing in a little golden coin.
Just incredible, it raised the day to another level of joy and wiped away the negative mindset created earlier. In all their life they having seen anything like this, that’s something to smile about!
Thank you for reading my words and following this journey.
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