On the road again, I spend a lot of time in fields, in or next to my tent. Laying or sitting and watching the clouds is a nice thing to do, to watch them float and morph into ghastly creatures that climb calm and gentle atop each other. They move forever and they move slowly, and so should we.
We should move while taking in the life around us, slowly and gratefully. Observing life and all the wondrous happenings, and the not so wondrous things. For it’s both beautiful and ugly, but if we move slowly we can select that which we want to focus on and remember. We have more time than we think we do.
Watch how the clouds move regardless, they’re relentless. As should we? Even when the obstacles come, which is inevitable (hardship and fuckery is guaranteed), we just have to keep moving onwards even if it is super slow, movement is important.
I build walls all the time: “you can’t do that”, “no and no”, “give that up and just quit”, each brick is an inner thought of doubt, a worry or a stupid-bloody-imaginary-scenario. There’s a trickster architect inside and they want to build some right ‘Adrian Fisher’ designs, to trap and confuse the more creative and productive workers inside.
‘I paused my mind in the moment,
I looked at all the things you said,
Then I turned away from the darkness’
‘When you’re lost, close your eyes,
Picture all the things you love,
Then follow that light,
It’s somewhere deeper inside’.
– lyrics from a new song
There’s no easy answer to fixing these moments of doubt. If you’ve come looking for an answer, then, well… erm, I mean listening to this and imagining flying across Hogwarts helps me;
Learn to pause, move slowly through your thoughts, take a day off and work on that wonder you have inside your mind.
Watch the clouds and move like them, slowly and infinitely.
Wishing you well, I currently reside in Dorset, camping close to Swanage.
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